Tuesday, March 25, 2014

The Light and the Promise

I have been avoiding You,
  so focused have I been on
  carrying out the plan.

Every moment, I have dedicated
  to its fulfillment.
  Waking and asleep,
  my mind worked it.

Yet, I hear Your call, once again,
  from the depths of my heart.
  It has been a persistent whisper.

So, finally I acquiesce to Your call.
  For the first time in months, I lit the candles
  and sat in silence to hear You.

I was at the base of the tree,
  and she came to me, the white-wolf-woman.
  She took my hand in hers and raised me up.

We walked the earth and the sky
  till we reached the black of universe.

There, she let go my hand
  and showed me the portal.
  'It is yours, if you wish,' she said.
  'Soon, the choice will be yours.'

The light, alone in the black, pulled me forward.
  I wanted it.  I want a release from all this.
  I want peace.  I want the grief to end.

So, I moved toward it.
  But then, out of the corner of my eye,
  I saw an elderly woman.

She was curled tightly on the ground,
  clad in rags and drenched from the rain.
  Her life force was weak and ebbing.

It was my choice.
  I could...can...choose the light.
  I am so tired from this life.

Yet, as I gazed at the light,
  I realized I was to hold the woman
  in my arms, to warm her body, to love her.

And, I was to deliver her soul to the light.

So, I took her in my arms, held her closely,
  poured my love into her broken heart
  and my tears onto her lifeless face.

And then, I carried her to the portal,
  to the angel that stood waiting
  with everlasting peace and love.

As the woman disappeared into the light,
  the angel held open the portal,
  waiting for my decision.

How easy it would be to slip into the light.
  How luring the promise of peace and wholeness,
  pure love, release from pain and fear.

The promise of peace and release from grief
  passed from the angel into my heart...
  even as I stood in the dark of life.

And, I realized,
  I am not yet done on this plane.
  There is more for me to do, to be, to live.

There are so many in so much pain,
  so many that yearn for warmth and love,
  so many that have none.

I can't take the place of one who
  truly is ready to step beyond.
  I must continue on this path...

...for now, anyway.

And, I do so armed with the
  peace and promise inherited by all
  from a Grace beyond our knowing.

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